Thursday, June 26, 2008

Update

I know I haven't updated this blog in a really long time. There's pretty much nothing to update about, which is really sad. It seems our whole adoption has fallen off the face of the earth or something. We haven't heard a word from our agency regarding anything since probably early March. Everything I know is through the different email groups I'm on or through various blogs. It is very frustrating to say the least. Our fingerprints expire in Oct. or Nov.

But, the big news is that Zach feels we should no longer go through with the adoption at this time. I tell you that that just breaks my heart and kills me. I still picture a little African girl that belongs in our family. First of all, our money from the sale of our house last summer which we intended to use for the adoption will have to go toward purchasing a new home. This would not be the case had we moved where there was a military base and base housing. But the Lord had plans to move us to Iowa where it was rent or buy. So, the funds we had for the adoption have to be used elsewhere. At first I was so against it but there'd be no way we'd be able to live otherwise.

Secondly, we have been busy with the whole move. And I think Zach feels that right now we're blessed with a baby who will be here sometime in September that we really don't need to pursue adoption at this time. I know with the busy-ness of moving and being pregnant has really taken over my life, but my heart still goes out to the orphans and I still feel the Lord has something in store for us. Why would we have begun this process if only to end this way? I'm not sure. I know that I'm still praying the Lord opens the doors for us to adopt. As I've stated before its been something I've always desired to do and I believe the Lord isn't through with us in this area yet.

So that's the news on the adoption front.

8 comments:

Brandi said...

Sweet friend. . my heart aches with yours. 2 things to encourage you with. . .one: hope Deferred. Just because it isn't happening now doesn't mean that God has not placed this in your future. Trust Him with it. . .the other thing is that do not believe for a moment that your heart for orphans is wasted. Adoption, I believe, is a VERY small part of the passion Jesus has for orphans. I believe that He has used this calling to draw you nearer to Him and will use it for His glory.. whether with the orphans in your new little community, praying or sponsoring or just raising awareness for orphans across the world. He doesn't waste these things. . that's not His style!

Love you. . I know this is extremely hard. .I'm sorry.

Bran
PS Call me anytime!

Jeremy and Kamina Johnson said...

I'm sorry you are going through this. The Lord will reveal his plans to you for your family. Hang in there!

A Family said...

I'm with you girlfriend in frustration and all!!! Our fingerprints expire very soon and I'm not sure we will be renewing at this point either. We feel as if this will never happen so we might be on the same road as you soon.

Hoping you are feeling well with the pregnancy!

Chris

Becky Avella said...

Hi Jamie,

I just read your comment on my blog. Hang in there! I know 7 weeks feel like an eternity, but they really will go by fast. The end is in sight! : )

As far as the adoption thing...I have to agree with Brandi. God will not waste the heart for orphans He has developed in you. His timing is always His own which is hard to accept but always perfect. Don't be afraid to call Rachel if you have questions about your case. It's better to go to the source then try to figure things out through blogs and yahoo groups. I learned that you can't wait to hear something, you just have to ask.

Can't wait to see what God's going to do for your family.

: ) Becky

Marla said...

Sorry to hear about the adoption news. It is heartbreaking! But I agree with the others on the comments that God has something in store for you and your family, and we don't always know WHAT it is or when it will happen, but we can trust Him anyway! So are you feeling big and fat now, like me? Sleep is difficult? Walking is a pain? Yea! That means it won't be long before we're holding our babies! How can I read your other blog (I can't seem to access it!)??

Becky Avella said...

Hey Jamie,

I'm dying to know about your new baby but I can't access your other blog. Would you email me or leave a comment on my blog about how things are going?

Love,
Becky

Grammy said...

I know this is none of my business. But I can see your pain. It has taken over your life, You need to instill joy in your family you do have and maybe for now find ways of giving a donation to some of the orphanages. on my site you will find a link to white-lilly. She is looking for people to knit cloths for baby's with aids in Africa. It will not be the same joy as having you own adoption. But just the joy of helping many baby's with gifts could fill your heart with some peace for now.

Anonymous said...

Hi, my name is Sherry and I have a question for you. I noticed that you are pregnant and my husband and I have just started trusting god with our fertility but we also want to pursue adoption. Is this possible to still pursue if we end up getting pregnant? What are the rules about that. So many say that we would have to wait until 1 year after the birth of a child. What adoption agencies don't have this rule? I don't want to start the process and not be able to do it because God blesses us with a baby.
Thanks so much!